Hi Can't Stop - Please hang on. I'm a big one to talk, but I do feel the need to say that in all of what you have written here you have forgotten to mention one very important fact. Through all of this your family is still in tact. I've suffered tremendously in life as you have and I can tell you this, without the loving support of family it has been twice as hard to stay motivated to continue to go on.

you have obviously got a loving husband LEAN ON HIM!! LEAN ON EACH OTHER!! Hug your children, please my dear - take the time to count your blessings. It sounds so cliche but in spite of all the emotional burdons that you may be carrying you all have one another and let me tell you that is going to get YOU through so much more than 10 sessions with a therapist.

Love and Peace
J