I was with T yesterday and we were talking about some difficult stuff, I became triggered and said my famous line "I feel like I am going to puke" (I say this almost everytime i see her, so she is used to it) she said "no you're not, you will be fine." I asked her if she would be mad if i puked and she said "Yes i would, I would be very mad and I would never bring you here ever again. Forget that.

A few minutes later I said that I had to pee and I would be right back. Her response was "Ok I am coming with you and I am going to listen" I told her "No, please don't" but she came anyway. As i was sitting in the stall trying to pee I couldn't figure out why she was in there. I could see her feet and being as that I have a very shy bladder I wasn't able to pee. I asked her if she could atleast turn on the water for me and she said "No, that will only muffle the sound" So I eventually gave up on peeing and washed my hands with her watching me the whole time.

When we left i figured out why she had followed me. I asked her if she followed me in there because she thought that I was going to make myself throw up and she said "Yes, that is exactly what I thought you were going to do." I didn't respond with anything.

Now I am kicking myself for not asking her all the questions that I have now, Why did you think that I was going to make myself puke? Do you not trust me? Why did you choose now to follow me? Why is it then when I say I feel like puking during session and then get up to go to the washroom you never follow me? Do you follow other people to the washroom or just me? Why don't you trust me? What would you have said or done if I had made myself puke?

Any responses or replies would be appreciated. Thanks.