many prayers for u & your family going to the Lord our God & strength & peace only He can give in this kind of hurt i remember when i suddenly lost a family member not too long ago in october that sunday i went to church & sobbed during the whole service & i went to the altar & just let it all out there & many people came to pray with me i didnt even pray a word at the altar that day i guess my tears & pain as i knelt before the Lord was enuff said for Him there was something about that day & just something about going to the altar well for me that was like a supernatural healing touch like not anything from this world but from God in Heaven while we are here we r always human & still hurt & sadness & a lot of thinking & i will even find myself getting ready to call mom then i realize shes not here anymore the strangest feeling thinking of & prayers for you & your family the nite it happened dad did nothing but sit at the table & sob all nite & just keeping saying stuff over & over first time in my life i had ever seen that man cry hes puts up a tough exterior & even though i never saw anybody give him a hug even thru this i went to him & gave him one & patted his back whether he liked it or not lol now hes my fatherinlaw but im like a daughter & i have managed over the years to develop a raport i dont care how tough he put out to be or his outbursts & rants & cussin hmmm sorry didnt mean to get into all this but your loss & sadness just inspired me to think about stuff