((((((((((((granite)))))))))))

I like far's suggestion of finding a way to self-soothe before session. Maybe doing some art on your own, or listening to music, or walking outside, or whatever helps you.

What if you took art with you? Or a collage, like some of us have done? Sometimes it's easier to have something concrete like that to talk about. She can even ask questions and you can just nod yes or no.

Or, like Ellie said, maybe you can just relax into the talking or not talking. It seems like your T is willing to wait as long as she needs to for you to build the trust and confidence to talk. Maybe just allow yourself to not talk...let yourself believe between sessions that not talking is okay...and just go experience being in that safe space. Let yourself rest a little.

I'm sorry it's so hard.