My mother has recently been diagonized with cancer, and she is continusly getting worse. I want to be there for my family, but they won't talk to me. I got kicked out of my bedroom and my dad through my bed out on Christmas. My supposided fiancee doesn't understand what i'm going through, and he thinks i'm shutting him out. I just don't have the strength to explain to him how I feel anymore. I feel like the more I do the more aggratived he gets. He always has told me that if I ever need to move out then his doors are always open. Then today, he drove up to the hosipital after an "i'm feeling overwheelmed" appointment with his therapist. He tells me that he isn't fiancially ready for me to move in. I love him very much, but my family is telling me that I should leave him because he can't support me. I try to be understanding, but I feel like he always thinks the worst of me. I don't know where I'm going to sleep from night to night. There is no food in the house and I just don't have any energy anymore. People at work asked me how my christmas was just becasue they wanted to brag about how much fun they had. My guy didn't bother getting me anything. My family didn't think that I was worth while. It doesn't feel like christmas. I feel like every year of my life is getting worse. I keep telling myself that it will get better, but I dont' know when. I'm afraid to live from day to day. I just want to run away and be alone, but I don't have enough money to support myself to do that. If anyone has any comments I would appracite it.