Well my Psychiatrist phoned me tonight at 11pm and I completely forgot all the questions that I had for her! UNBELIEVABLE! We still had a good talk though about how I have been sleeping too much during the day and that she doesn't really wanting me taking my sleep meds anymore but she said that I could take 2 of them again like i did last nite as last nite was very triggering for me.

As I stopped for coffee on my way home last and went inside the coffee shop I saw the guy who raped me 7yrs ago sitting inside drinking coffee! So last nite and when I got home I called my psychiatrist and she had to keep saying "what? what was that? I can't understand you" Clearly I was upset. So she was really good and helped me get through it and talked about how I am safe now and I am in my own home and that he can't hurt me anymore. We did a bit if visualization and then said that she had to get going as it was almost midnight and she needed to get some sleep and she told me that I could take 2 of my sleep meds last nite. -But she made it quite clear to ONLY TAKE 2 anymore than that then I will be in trouble. I asked if I would be in trouble from her and she said no. Your body will be in trouble and you will end up in hospital again and then we will keep going round and round until I learn how to take care of myself and learn to believe in myself. So she wished me a goodnight with sweet dreams and told me to keep myself safe. She told me that again toniht. ONLY TAKE 2! So I did as I was told. I just wish that things would start to improve faster. It has been such a long journey and it is exhausting,

Again, any comments or suggestions are always appreciated.