Oh, I haven't been here for ages! I've been too busy on Facebook instead.

But I just thought I'd start at thread to at least document how I am going this month as I am really concerned that I will totally lose it all again.

I graduated from uni last year and started my first full time job at the start of this year. Along with that, I've been working on two big projects on the side for free to gain some experience. Now those projects have deadlines at the end of this month and I'm running out of time! I can't get much sleep due to them and work and I'm already relying on energy/soft drinks too much and can feel my mood getting worse every day. I feel like self harming but so far the only harm I've done to myself is accidentally stab myself in the thumb with a knife. Problem is though, I was pissed off at the time and it reminded me how calming pain can be. Sigh.

I don't have an appointment with my pdoc till March so not sure what I should do if things get worse or when I should do something because at the moment it's crap but I think I can manage it. Suggestions?