It just sounds like a lot of really horrible things happened yesterday. It's no wonder that you are upset and feeling really unstable.

Good for you for reaching out for help, whether it be here, with therapist or psychiatrist. Even though there isn't necessarily the amount of help that you might like around, it's important that you keep reaching out for it. Know that your therapist is sitting with you through the pain, even though they may not be physically present with you.

Regarding the following you to the restroom and the pills. Sometimes I think therapy is about comfort, and sometimes I think it is the therapist's job to monitor bad coping skills and become active in stopping those behaviours - especially is the therapist has concerns regarding your physical health.

FWIW, if I were sitting at lunch with one of my friends who had just said she was going to puke, and I knew she had a history of disordered eating, I would follow her to the bathroom too. She might get mad, but sometimes the greatest way to show that you care is to not sit passively by and let a person hurt themselves.

I'm so sorry that you saw the person that raped you in a coffee shop of all places. So very sorry. Predators like that should be locked up and kept away from anyone. Not sitting in a coffee shop.