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Originally Posted by granite1
i so hope i get to the point that talking is more important than not.i want to be at piece with being able to talk not just with my T but with others in my life .but it seems super imposable to talk to T.the fear is amazing.she seems to know this.i know it isnt good for me to be this way.and am despritely trying to find a way to be ok .
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Actually, what I'm addressing is the NOT talking part. What if you just relaxed, told yourself it OKAY that i'm not ready to talk. Period. I'm just not ready.
What I want for you (and I hope this is what you want for yourself) is for the
desparation to be alleviated.
Honestly, IMO the fear you are expressing is not about the talking, it's already coming from what you are not talking about.
If that's the case, oh my goodness! Who wouldn't be afraid! It's ok.
I would try to stop saying "it isn't good for me to be this way" That sounds like a super harsh judgement to me, and one that is NOT warranted at all.
I think you are OK right now. Perhaps you could try to repeat that to yourself a couple of times.
I am OK right now.
Replace that tape in your head that says "I must" with one that says "I will". Maybe not today or tomorrow but "I will".
Peace to you and be safe.