Generally the good times outweigh the bad, and I feel so very lucky to have found him, so lucky that for some reason I still cant understand he chose to be with me despite all my crazyness.He mostly takes it all in stride and laughs and smiles, and he has the greatest smile. He broke down my defenses, my stubbornness, my flat angry refusal to let anyone in, with that amazing smile and that dorky laugh, his way of seeing me anyway and understanding me no matter how hard I tried to hide. When he hurts or scares me, or makes me feel like nothing through neglect, and knows it, he always apologizes and looks and sounds so sorry. When he lies and breaks promise after promise its the same. Even when he uses me, doesnt care and wont stop even when hes hurting me and im trying to hurt him just to try to make him stop. And I always want to believe him! Im crazy about him