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Originally Posted by PTSDlovemycats
Thanks Treehouse. The strange thing is that i had a dream a few months ago that i was in a washroom making myself puke and when i turned around there was the psychologist (who i don't see) standing there with her hands on her hips and was yelling at me for doing that. I told my psychiatrist that dream and she said that she thought that the psychologist represented her (my psychiatrist) in some way. I asked her if she would do the same thing and she said "No, I would sit there with you and try to comfort you" that was only a few months ago. So for her to say yesterday that she would be mad at me if puked and then follow me into the washroom...I don't know. She knows that I make myself puke. What happened to her wanting to comfort me?? I don't know, I am at a loss. I asked her to call me tonight but she hasn't yet...
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Can you see how getting comfort from your therapist while puking could/would reinforce that behavior? I know if i thought a behavior of mine would result in comforting from my T, I would probably want to do it all the time. I don't think she should have followed you into the bathroom though. That can also be reinforcing. Both positive and negative reinforcers. It's better (imo, of course) to not do anything. You are the one responsible for your own behaviors. Do you want to stop the behavior? Why not focus on what causes it, the triggers, and what you can do to help yourself NOT do it?
Another thought: Did you tell her you wanted to puke to see if she would really comfort you like she said?