I'm sorry you're having such a difficult time right now. Try to keep telling yourself that is will get better. From the looks of it, it has to, can't get much worse. Anyway, I hope that things to start to look up, but I don't really have any advice for you, because well, I'm not experienced in the problems that you are having and I don't want to say the wrong thing. So for now, I will just say welcome, and keep posting. People here are caring and helpful.

[b][pink]"On the plus side you killed the bench, which was starting to look shifty."-Oz of Buffy the Vampire Slayer[b][pink]