I'm sorry you're struggling with this. I used to belong to this faith but coverted to a different religion for marriage purposes. I never could understand why they wouldn't allow priests to be married - I think it's an absurd rule. What do you mean he wants to sactify your relationship?

Would he be willing to join a branch Christian religion, that does allow marriage? If he doesn't want to do this and fulfill your relationship completely, then I think you deserve better. He could still be a religious leader but just wouldn't be in that specific religion. Sooner or later you have to look out for your happiness. I'm sorry you're torn by this. I never could understand why any faith would expect another human to deny their physical desires.