How long does it take to recover from an abusive relationship? It's been August 2009 since I broke up with the bastard, but I'm still screwd up with a nasty case of PTSD. It made my agoraphobia come back with a vengeance. I have a hard time even leaving the house or being around people. I have a hard time finding a job.

This bastard abused me emotionally, physically, financially and sexually. I hate myself for not breaking up with him sooner. Hell I had that awful feeling of "This isn't a good idea to get involved" but I thought that I was too old to find anyone else.

I really hate myself for this. I hate myself for ruining my life by staying with him for that year.

I fear that I am forever broken and my life is basically over.