Me too, googley. In past therapies, I used to sometimes waste entire sessions wanting to say something that I couldn't say. It still happens. A few months ago, I started a sentence and then stopped. I don't know how many times I started that sentence but I finally finished it. I still have to talk about it and I think it will be just as hard. I know this sounds like it's not helpful, but I think you just have to jump in, knowing you aren't going to die, and your T will help you. I know!!! Much easier said than done. The words just don't come out!