Well, my session was yesterday and I did end up bringing my friend. It wasn't what I had hoped for. I had this fantasy that my friend would really like my T, have some useful information to share about what she expiriences me, T would be really responsive and open, and it would be overall very positive.

That wasn't exactly the case. My friend had all of the right intentions, she was very talkative and inquisitive into his style with me and how it works for us. She gave him some suggestions about what she used to do with her T (she did CBT and I never have) and explained how that helped her. My T was very patient and seemd to take it all in. He answered her questions and tried to be as neutral as possible, giving information to her but also respecting the private relationship we have built. I was constantly zoning in and out, trying to stay present but finding myself getting uncomforable when they talked about me. She stayed in the session for about 30 minutes and then let my T and I have the rest of our time. I immediatly appologized in case he felt attacked or questioned unfairly. He was gentle about it and said he kind of knew it was going to be like that but wanted to respect my feelings and let me try it. He said it started going in a bad direction, so he turned it around and he felt better about it. He wanted to know what my fantasy was and what I ended up getting out of it. He also thought she obviously cares tremendously about me and my well-being and was invested in my treatment. She told me when I got out that she was a little disapointed because he mad her feel a bit uncomfortable by not being very open to her ideas. But, she said it is clear that we have a good relationship, and while he probably wouldn't be a good fit for her, she is glad he works for me.

Anyway, there's a lot more but those were the main ideas. As a whole, it was a bit disappointing because I had this picture in my head of how it would go and that's not how it went. However, it could have gone a lot worse and I'm thankful to have my friend and T that care about me and want the best for me...they have that in common. I am glad I did it because I won't be wondering what it would be like or wishing I had done it. I hope this brings my T and I a little closer because of some things she disclosed about me and our relationship...so I'm trying to stay positive