Hi. Please don't think your trip to the physician was totally worthless... even though the emotional needs weren't filled, finding out there is nothing notably, physically wrong is good. Any real therapist you do see now will want to know that, that there isn't any underlying physical problem to speak of. With that said, depression IS a physical problem! It's brain chemistry though and not the same as say, thyroid problem. The attitude your physician gave you is HER problem, not yours. You need to continue in spite of her response. And finding another helper, as a teenager, is not easy. You don't have full control of your life and who you contact etc., and those who do, well, you have trouble communicating with. They might even be a part of your problem. Wanting to self injure is a crisis time. Your talk now of how you feel ok is also evidence that you need help outside of yourself. You might be something like bipolar... which just means you have really high highs and low lows.. it is pretty much "fixable" with medications.. a psychiatrist specializes in those type of medications. BUT few psychiatrists today do counselling... so you might also need someone you can trust to counsel you, a clinical psychologist maybe. The suggestion of using your school counselor is a good one. They can become your "advocate" for further treatment... a "liaison" between you and your parents, who must provide the financial support you probably need. Please remember you are not alone... even when you feel that way... and even when you KNOW you are... you are NOT ALONE... there are many ppl here to help you remember your path. Please continue to search for what is in YOUR BEST INTEREST. ;}