I don't know if she used the word 'should' or if that was me putting that in there. I know she wants me to feel comfortable to talk about it and feel safe. I think she was trying to find a way to make it easier for me to open up next time I want to talk about it. Pointing out that it isn't a new topic next time I bring it up because we have talked about it before. I know that I wish that I could talk about it easier.

Echos-
i always feel like I have to say the right thing. If I don't say the right thing then it could be misinterpreted incorrectly. I think this came from a mix of two things 1) when I was younger I used to use the wrong words (like a word that would sound like the word I wanted, but not be the word.) and 2) (not so much any more, but really big when I started T) was fear that if I said the wrong thing in T I would get sent to the hospital.

We have talked about it needing to be the right thing a little bit, but I haven't told her how hard it is and my need to have it be the right thing. Sometimes it feels like I have to pick the 'right' topic. If I don't pick the right one then I'll waste my time. So it can take me a while sometimes to pick something. Though this is definitely different than not being able to talk about something that I want to talk about because of fear.