While no one here can guarantee anything, I can tell you that I went through what you are talking about. Like you, I did not want a relationship with anyone. And I sure did not want to have feelings (romantic feelings) toward my therapist. That was totally unexpected and I did not know how to handle it. It was very painful to go through, knowing that I could never have that kind of relationship with her. I knew that we could not even be friends. That hurt a lot.

Fortunately, my therapist knew how to handle this with 'kid gloves'. She did not make me feel embarrassed, nor did she humilate me in any way. It was not easy to talk about with her, but because of the support I found here on PC, I was able to be open with her about my concern with the feelings I was developing in therapy.

It did not just go away in one session. It has taken months for me to come to a point that I finally get what this relationship is. I no longer have those feelings for her that were causing so much agony for me. I am still very fond of her and have to keep myself in check when I feel those feelings coming back again.

I am sorry this is so hard on you. I know how you feel. There are a number of us who have gone through this, so stick with it and keep posting on PC.