May trigger...please only read if safe...

(((((((cat)))))))

I studied A&P (Anatomy & Physiology) as part of a medical degree, and as part of the subject I needed to complete a unit that included cadaver work.

I refused but was told I would fail the unit, therefore failing the subject, therefore unable to pass my degree.

I was pregnant at the time also. I did not want to be there. I have seen more than my fair share of deceased people - for a variety of reasons - and I spent the entire time in a fully blown panic attack (not because I was scared of 'dead people' and wondering if there were ghosts like my professor snidely remarked and told me to stop being a ditzy blonde!!). The professor in charge of the lab passed me for attendance and I made the lowest passable grade for the unit. I still to this day don't know how I managed to stay. I guess the fact that I don't remember much of it is probably a clue, lol. It took me a long time to get over it, and it has become something of a 'bad' memory that hasn't processed properly that jumps into focus at inappropriate moments five years later, but that could be due to current T work and opening access to memories in general.

I'm so sorry this happened to you without warning. It must have been a great shock to experience it in a space you may have thought of as safe and untriggering. I hope you are able to process it with your T.

My thoughts are with you,
kp