I'm sorry you have not been very fortunate with loving people around you. I hope that you can find some people you can hug or even just sit next to and know that there is that connection with them. Do you have any pets? What helps me when I feel alone like there is no one to hold me (usually had those feelings a lot before meeting my boyfriend i met online and moving in with him, id crave his touch but i couldnt have it), I would cuddle up with my dog. I know she isn't a person but it was better than nothing. It sounds to me like your "love language" is "touch." Meaning that you value hugs, cuddles, even just a hand-shake, and that your physical contact with others is the way you feel the positive emotions between you and others. If that makes sense. For some people, it is giving gifts, as in when they feel they want to express their love for someone, they will give them a physical gift. Others it is "time" where they will spend time with others if they care about them. Anyway.... it is tough to have a touch love language because it is a vulnerable position to be in to let someone touch you and a lot of people are afraid of that. Well, anyway, whether or not you do get that human contact, just know you deserve it. And you never know if you will find someone in the future who you can be physical with. I hope you do, because we all deserve hugs. OK i am done rambling :P