Again, thank you for your insight, I will try, I feel that all the years I have spent protecting myself from being hurt by not letting anyone in, by putting a wall between myself and everyone else, has come to be a huge problem. Now I see that maybe people think that is who I really am, when I really am not. I have so much love to give, so much. I just need someone who will let me give that to her, and will be able to give it back to me, when I can learn that it won't hurt.