I'm living with this guilt that I punish myself. I am always afraid that this secret of mine will be revealed and my bf would never see me the same way ever again. This secret put me in shame with every bone in my body. How do I move forward when telling the whole story is not an option because it will only make things a total mess. I've expressed to him only the partial truth but he doesn't know the entire story. I talk in my sleep and I am so scared that one day the truth will be told in my sleep. Im scared that I'll run into someone that will force me to tell him the actual story. The incident should never had happened but it did and now I have to live with myself. This guilt is eating me up inside.