"In what way do you feel being borderline affects you most?"

I feel that since being diagnosed that I have noticed a lot of instability in my relationships. I have noticed a pattern of becoming overly dramatic when things don't go my way or I am not getting the attention that I feel that I deserve.

In relationships I have noticed that, while I am not the jealous type per se, I am extremely territorial... (not quite sure how to put it). I love wholeheartedly and I expect that love to be returned and when I feel it isn't I can withdraw, feel like love isn't worth it and become depressed.

I have also noticed that I cannot handle stressful situations well, but at the same time I thrive on chaotic situations. Example: I missed a day of school this week. Then I forgot my project the next two days forcing me to do other projects. I needed to get these other two projects done while at the same time finishing my project that was done in class on Monday/Tuesday. On Friday I ended up presenting the finalized project started on Wednesday/Thursday, finishing the project that was done on Monday and finishing the project that was done on Tuesday. All while helping a classmate do her hair (cosmetology school) and having my hair done. I also had my daily lab assignment of cleaning the back room and making sure everything was put away. I felt great by the end of the night. I was also so stressed out and relieved at the same time that I ended up getting into a small spat with my boyfriend over something extremely trivial on the phone.

So while chaos makes me feel alive it also stresses me out and I end up getting overly emotional and take things out of context when I shouldn't.

It makes me feel like I am stuck between a rock and a hard place all the time.