Some of what you're working on I have begun with therapy this past couple of months too. Trying to let the past go and find some peace of mind with my decisions. The T said it will take a bit of time to process since there's so much. I find myself thinking constantly between sessions to try to figure stuff out and then I talk about it in session. I am hoping the T will be able to give me some concrete guidance once my 'story' has been told. I'm reading an awesome book now called, "Everything you Need to Know to Feel Go(o)d." by Candace Pert, Ph.D. She's a renowned psychopharmacologist who also wrote the book "Molecules of Emotion" and was interviewed by Bill Moyers in his PBS Series, "Healing and the Mind". She was also featured in the movie, "What the Bleep Do we Know?" I've just begun the book and I'm hoping it will give me tips on how to change my reactions and how get beyond my personal history.