I went to group yesterday, and talked about what is going on with my kids and what is going on with my T. GroupT had some very helpful and comforting things to say, and helped me figure out a way to feel better about going to see T tomorrow.

I talked about Boot Camp T and how scared I am that I will meet her tomorrow. I told the group about what treehouse said, that if she is Boot Camp T, I can just ask her, why are you being Boot Camp T?

I talked about the first time I saw the Boot Camp side of T. It was a year ago, almost exactly. When I showed up for my session that day, instead of coming out to greet me T went back in her office and then called to me: Molly, come back here. I should have known right then that something was off.

So we actually talked about that and how I can react if it happens again. I said if she does that I will leave, just get up and leave. But groupT helped me realize that, if that happens, I can go up to T and say "hey, wtf?"

It is hard for me to not view T as a sort of punishing parent at times. I have to remind myself that she is not my mom, that I am not a little girl, that this hasn't all happened before.