Sucks that I see my freinds and family members having a nice relationship with their spouses and have little ones of their own running around while I sit here in the lonely quiet dark house.

My best friend always has a woman at his feet, nice ladies who I have tried so hard to get them to even make eye-contact with me, just toss me aside and fall for a guy like him or in a couple of cases left me for him because of his unique looks, or simply hes GOD'S GIFT TO WOMEN!!! Then he takes advantage of them, does a one night stand, then tosses them out because of it. Then in one case the woman cries to me about it, but still wont let me be his replacement, so again, I sit in the dark until she finds someone better.

OH LETS JUST PUT IT THIS WAY, MEN WITH EXTRA BAGGAGE LIKE ME GET PISSED ON AND DUMPED HARD!!!!

Im a simple minded fella with a simple minded job (welder) is just tired of coming home to a empty, dark house. To alot "HEY MAN, YOU ARE SO LUCKY!" But it does suck after a while.

My brother had everything going, good job as a artist, nice home, played in a cool band, a very nice woman at HIS feet, 100s of other friends at his feet then like in April of 2004 he threw it all away when he bit his own bullet, and im still here having to suffer through it. Yes the evil suicide gene that runs in the family got him, and I wonder every-day how long I have left before I join him, and why the hell am I here living with it period.

Nobody ever calls me to see how im doing, nobody ever asks me to go out to do anything. Its so difficult for me to make friends because when I do, oh well things like my car are the friend to them to take them places or to do favors instead of me.

I for once would love to be some one's "Favorite person" Never has happened to me, and maybe never will. It just gets to a point where I hate being around people or just hate them period. And to top it all of, I was a canidate for bullies growing up in school. No one gave a **** what I went through at that time. I fear people working a job, much less hate working a new job because of BULLY BOSSES!

And please whoever replies, DO NOT TELL MY I HAVE "ISSUES!" I so hate fad-words like that, that just irritate the crap out of me.

Im just mad and frustrated at life, sorry.

But im telling you, If given the chance, im a fun loving person more than you can imagine. Alot and I mean ALOT of asshole people in my life have pissed all over it HARD. I try very, very hard to overcome these things, but as you can see, I failed.