Don't worry about it. It's just a label... you are not your label, you're you. I know what you mean, some people will look down on you... but so what? That's their problem, not yours.

I'm sorry if that advice sounds a little bit glib, I don't mean it to be. I'm also worried about what happens when people find out I'm a "nutjob." My son is very careful not to say anything that would betray the family secret... not because he's ashamed of me, but because he wants to protect me. When I first heard the "schizoaffective" label applied to me I felt dreadful, and wished it was "just" bipolar. But I've started to come to terms with it. We're different... but then isn't everybody?