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Originally Posted by saywhat?
Hey Swell....
There's not a soul on this board, or anywhere else for that matter, that doesn't have issues. I used to feel very selfish and guilty about my "issues" b/c I thought it would be such an intrusion into my family's time and resources, not to mention my husband, haha! Foolish me....I worried so much for them and neglected my self and here we are! My family now avoids me like the plague. My husband and I go through 2-3 day cycles of crazy fighting/getting along. My Mom is the only exception, and that's b/c she thinks she can "fix" me. I am a social idiot and am just simply unable to meet new peope or make friends. My career was in an environment that should've made it impossible NOT to be social and make friends. Not me!! I was always the "fluffy" girl in the group, the girl that other girls took on dates to make sure their hot boyfriends wouldn't be tempted to stray. That trend started in kindergarten (not the dating part of course) and continued through middle &high school. And being one not to break a good ole tradition, at 37 I'm still stuck in the cycle. I'm sorry I'm rambling on so much, my point is to say that I FEEL YOUR PAIN. I did find someone to date online and we got married in 2009. Now I get to live this nightmare with someone right up in my face asking me questions all the time. We always want what we don't have, right?
Oh, and I had a bully boss too, for almost ten years! I wound up quitting that job in October b/c of those aforementioned issues, the damn ***** finally succeeded in driving me crazy!
One last thing....what's up with "the woman or friends at his feet"? Not a very sensitive way to express that thought maybe?
Good Luck....chatting online wherever is better than stewing in your own sauce in a quiet,dark house!
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They are at his feet because he is "God's gift to women" I cant count how many relationships he has had because he has had them crawling all over him, and whats messed up, I have been in the middle of a few of them. They call ME and ask me what he thinks about them. When he dumped two of them in the trash and when I went go to pick up what he has thrown out: *UP GOES THEIR NOSE AT ME* This is really basically a case of jealousy on my part I guess.
Now he will CALL me once-a-year and ill know the reason why, because its a time out period when him and her FIGHT...But ill know right away when he is back with her.. "Leave your name and number and ill get back to you" <--Which never happens. I moved here to Louisiana to start a new life in 2005 (away from New Orleans and Katrina) after living in crazy crowded Houston where I was born and raised, so 350 miles seperates me from my true friends. Im merely here also to look after my more and more dependant mother & pops, but we live in seperate households.
Hes been married twice already and now is on his third marrige, and I have never even been engaged. Has 2 kids both now in their teens.
My quest at this moment, is to marry the TRUSTING girl of my dreams that excepts me for who I am, have a couple of kids of my own who I will love to no end, and always have someone to come home to with open arms and to share cool events like every New Years Eve. I dont see it happening anytime soon. *Crickets chirp* Or even TALKING and SOCIALIZING with a nice woman would be good for starters.
I figure by the time If I ever get around to marriage, ill need viagra to make a family if death by old age doesnt beat me to it first.