Hello to everyone. My name is Tina and im 28 years old. This is my first time coming to a support forum for this. I am very angry for days and then I am okay, then I cry for no apparent reason at all for a good couple hours then it stops. I am scared at times to go to sleep because i do not want to wake up angry again. I have left my husband and children several times for no reason at all but my own enjoyment and felt no remorse in doing so. I am back home now and everything that I have done is tumbling down on me hard. I have this impulsive behavior to go and do whatever I want to do and not worry about my family. I hate this feeling and I want to get better. I really love my family and I do not want to leave again when I have an episode. Im scared because I sometimes get thoughts that no one wants me around. I do not hurt myself but in the back of my mind I think to myself maybe if I do, people will notice me more. I need advice and lots of it. If anyone is going through anything similar to this please feel free to chat with me, I need people who understand. Thanks in advance.