I writing a list of beliefs that I would like to change. They are all negative thoughts that I believe about myself. I was surprised by how many I came up with (9) and how almost everyone of them date back to childhood. Everytime that I think I have gotten my negative thinking to a low level, I seem to discover more squirrly beliefs. Will I ever be able to go through a whole week without my negative thinking rearing its ugly head? I did therapy a decade ago and have re-started therapy again. Why haven't I managed to get rid of more of my negative thinking?
As for helping others, I am studying to become an addiction counselor. However, I fear that my negative thinking will interfere with my ability to counsel others. (of course this is predicting the future which is a bad idea) But, I have been trying to stress myself into a mental disorder on this one and a few other things. T probably thinks I have succeeded on this account (Adjustment Disorder). So, I am wondering what you all think about all of this?