You seem to be jealous of your friends and your brother for having women throwing themselves at their feet, but by wht you said, you shouldn't be jealous at all. All you want is one girl to spend the rest of your life with right? Thats not what your brother/friends have. They are running through women because they arent compatible with just one. Why would you want to go through 100s of women and hurt yourself on so many relationships if all you want is one meaningful one. Ask yourself, would you really want to be on you THIRD marriage at this point in your life? You should strive to find the ONE girl that youll be with forever, because going after a bunch, wont end p well, because it hasn't with your brother or friend yet. Im sure if you try to go out (or take saywhat?'s advice and talk online) that you could find a girl that would want to spend her time with you too. If you don't push your "issues" on her, she would accept you for who you are, issues or not, because if someone loves you, they will accept you for who you are. Dont give up on life! You have alot to live for.