Im a very cynical person but I dont know when that happened, because I wasnt always like this! And despite this I fell for the man that I married, and still love him to death after so long. I dont know if it was because im masochistic and feel like I should be hurt sometimes, or if I thought I could take the crap he dishes out, or if the idea of a less ordinary life with him appealed to me more than the same humdrum relationship everyone else seemed satisfied with, but I married him knowing he was clinically diagnosed as a sociopath.I honestly havnt felt that my marriage has been any worse than most others, until recently. But lately things have been falling apart and its just been one thing after another. He has been ignoring me for the past year (although he has been doing better with this the past couple of weeks) and is in very major trouble with the law, and has thrown serious doubt on himself as a person and our relationship. Im posting this so I can try getting my mind straight and hoping to get outside guidance on how I can re-open communication with him because I cant play this game right now. We have been married 15 years and known each other for 17 but these circumstances are very new. * I care about him so much and just want my partner back, the man Ive been married to all this time!