So I know this sounds pathetic but I wanna cancel my appt tuesday even after having to schedule an extra appt thursday last week. I brought up what is turning out to be a really difficult issue for me...eating disorder type behaviors. She is keeping me highly accountable and Im freaking out BAD. If I call and cancel she'll know something is up and that Im reverting to old avoidance behaviors to keep from feeling. Plus its really stupid for me to cancel an original appt after having had to schedule an extra appt. I'm scared of what she'll say when she sees my homework...and 2 days of it are blank...UGH the guilt and shame from all of this is killing me. I dunno what to say or do I so wanna cancel but I know I shouldnt...Ick I dont like these dilemmas.