Melissa,
I am with you! I have therapy tonight and I want to cancel too! I keep a diary card of eating disorder behaviors during the week and turn it in to her. I hate doing it when I've had a bad week - I feel like such a failure. She always says she is not judging me, but the feelings are still there.

Keep your appointment, and try not to think about it until you get there. Is there some way you can distract yourself until then? I think the times we most want to cancel are the times that therapy can be the most helpful, at least that's been my experience in the past. Hang in there!

ps - it doesn't sound pathetic! Be kind to yourself, ok?