thanks. Im gonna keep the appt might call and let her know that I really wanted to cancel but Im keeping the appt. Im just hoping I can get up the nerve to start eating again but I doubt it. I try to distract myself but my head is too loud more often than not unless I decide to sleep it away. but again that would be avoiding not dealing with the problem. I will go but I dont like the chaos in my head leading up to the appt. Oh well deal with that when I get there.