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I'm so sorry you ran into your rapist. I can only imagine how triggering that would be. I'm glad that you were able to talk to your pdoc and take the right amount of medicine. That shows a lot of strength. It is good self care.

As to the situation at the cafe, I do think your T was following you to make sure you did not puke. When she said that she would be mad, (at least from what you say here) she did not say who she would be mad at. My guess is that in saying that she would not bring you back to this cafe, she would be mad at herself for bringing you to a place and talking about issues that caused you to use bad coping mechanisms. That she did not judge your level of stability accurately.