Hello, I haven't been here in awhile but I know I can always come back and get supported - thank you for that

I haven't seen t in therapy for about 5 years now. We did reconnect last year and it was awesome - not in therapy. I have never stopped missing him even though I was the one to terminate. Now I have a dilemma - I am thinking about going on meds (hate the thought but I know when things are not right). I want to talk to T about this but I don't know if that is even appropriate and do I want to start something again. We have emailed and he has always been very helpful. What to do.....

I am feeling overwhelmed - I know my triggers - I think I know why they are happening - I know I need something -(meds-talking) - when the urges get more difficult to ignore then I know something is up.

I just don't know if this is the right road to take.

Thanks for the help,