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Originally Posted by Ardmore
I emailed my mother 2 weeks ago about how badly she emotionally and psychologically abused me and my brother, I was just so anger that I finally told her how much I hated her, she just denied it all and told me to F*** Off,
who in the F***ing hell does she think she is.:#
All those years she lied to me, and controlled me and she denies it all, she was worst to my brother, and me but not my sister, she's just like her.
All those years she humiliated me, attacking and almost killing my will to express myself, how badly she ruined my childhood, and she denies it all.
why can't she just admit it, she calls the people and me lying bastards, even with all the proof in the world she can't admit.  |
Hi there,
If I may be so blunt - if the only thing she did was to tell you to "F" off consider yourself lucky. Your upbringing sounds eerily all too familiar. Have you thought perhaps of the possibility that your mother has some very serious personality disorders? Narcissistic personality disorder comes to mind for one...there are many others but I am the survivor of chronically ill narcissistic Father who all but destroyed me and my family.
I might suggest you do some reading on this if you just do a goggle search you will come up with a multitude of excellent info out there. I found it best not to try and read those things that was suggested but to do the research on my own and read what resonated with me and my situation.
If this is the case for you as it was for me - putting the pieces together will be a lifetime process and it will not happen overnight for sure. I don't know if you are currently in therapy but that would be of great help to you at this point to work through some of the anger issues you have.
The anger is very difficult to get rid of - my suggestion is to just feel it. Let it out it. It may take spending a lot of time alone, by yourself, to really get in touch with what has caused those intense feelings and why. You will waste time and energy trying to hold those who hurt you accountable. It's time to start working on "damage control"
Best of Luck
J