You know I asked my T this or something simular, I said I was so sick of being "screwed up" (used other words, I don't know if we are allowed to post them)

Well he said that there are 2 ways to look at it. Everyone has had something happen to them painful in their life, some worse than others, but we all need to learn to accept it and move on like everyone else does
OR
I am (screwed up) and so is everyone else.

I am still trying to deceide which path to take on healing.
I truely think you can never "forget" these tramatic things that have happened to us, but we can learn to live with it and try to move on and be happy in spite of it. I am still trying to do that part. Sometimes it just feels impossiable.