Growing up, my parents had a lot of problems and I got the brunt of a lot of just ...bizarre kinds of emotional cruelty from them, and just a basic lack of care. The specifics aren't important, but later when I got older and my parents got older and changed and maybe somehow got healthier they both apologized for the way they treated me as a kid.

I thought that was what I had always wanted, but when it happened it was just kind of empty and deflating. Basically, their acknowledgement that it wasn't okay doesn't change what it was, what happened, and how I developed as a result of my childhood experiences.

I understand the need for the acknowledgement, I had that really bad too. But I think what's smarter and better for you is to focus on you. You know what happened and who you are and only you can bring yourself happiness.

Something may be wrong with you mom, as voidofcourse suggested and that doesn't make it any different for us emotionally a lot of times, but we have to accept it logically in order to move on...