I probably should just find another prescriber. I have mentioned the title of Dr. Hale's book and gave her the infant risk warmline number to call about med advice but she stated she was too busy to call. I called myself and then called her with what they told me and that wasn't good enough for her. Bottom line, nothing is 100% safe and she won't put it on her conscious prescribing a nursing mom meds.

I really don't want to have to get a new therapist though. I don't know if its a thing here in mass or with my insurance what but you have to be in therapy to get meds beyond what a gp will prescribe, and the only places that take my insurance (masshealth and medicare)are the community full service behavioral health complexes. I could see if another prescriber will take my case but then I get bumped down the waiting line and it'll take months to get an appointment (seriously, its bad).

I pump, but my output is very little. I get one feeding's worth out of several pumpings. I;m actually proud of myself, I used to get nothing at all so I am sticking with it to see if it gets better.

I would LOVE LOVE LOVE to get a babysitter, nanny, housekeeper, maid service, au pair, personal chef, chauffeur, anyone to help out but we have no money. We're saving up every penny as is for car repairs, then I get new glasses, then my husband pays the registry to get his license back.

Sorry for this being so long, I never really express any of this. My husband is supportive but doesn't want me to use formula (kinda funny since he's not the one providing milk),and it's clear to me my therapist has never been around babies or has any sort of experience with my mommy issues to bring to the table. Luckily there's plenty of other stuff to cover

Luckily my little guy is taking a good nap today. I'm trying to breathe and take it easy.