((( Improving )))

I know it's hard to rely on others for the kind of support you need. I can relate to that so much. One of my biggest issues is not having enough of a support system in place, and it's hard to figure out how to find that support system - and trust it.

Although I understand your reluctance to seek hospitalization or work towards finding another T...but your current situation seems unbearable, so I am hopeful that you will consider other options to get some relief.