I am very well aquainted with that overwhelmed feeling. I have three kids and live in a two bedroom house also, and until my oldest one recently got old enough that I could step out by myself (like to run errands or go for a walk) without dragging all the kids with me, I had a constant sense of feeling tied down, trapped, and sometimes almost like I couldn't even breath. It took a DCFS social worker coming to my door and telling me that my daughter was old enough that I could leave the kids home sometimes (because a neighbor reported that I was mentally unstable) before I could start to have a little bit of freedom. If you could get your husband or a friend or someone to watch the kids for you regularly so that you can have a break, even if you just go for a walk, that would probably make a big difference. Being able to go for a walk by myself was strange at first but it realy helped me to feel less trapped.

Difficulty with concentration can be a symptom of depression or of PMDD. I have some trouble with concentration too - mainly it takes longer than it should to read material for my classes. I've mostly associated that with depression, but that doesn't go away when my other depression symptoms mostly do, and my sister (a psychiatrist) says that I might have some ADD also. She suggested a new drug called Strattera for that, but I haven't tried it. It sounds like a good drug - if you can go to a doctor you might ask about it.

Developing websites is a good skill. If you find the right clients you can do pretty well with that. You could also sit down with your husband and spell it out for him that you need something to change. If he is willing to make some effort to help you, that's wonderful but if he totally refuses then maybe you need to think about why you're staying with him.

Does this help at all? Keep talking to us - just being able to communicate with someone helps to fight the isolation. That was another thing that has helped me a lot (getting internet connection and making some friends on-line). Best wishes to you!

<font color=green>"Loneliness does not come from having no people about one, but from being unable to communicate the things that seem important to oneself, or from holding certain views which others find inadmissible" Carl Jung</font color=green>