mmmmhhh... hun, just b/c this one T didn't work doesn't mean noone will work out... I had exactly the same experience and it made me run as fas as I could.... until I could run no more. and being sad for so long, really does somewhat become a way of living, but I wonder sometimes, what kind of living is this? you deserve to be happy. you deserve to find a good T if you want one. you deserve to feel good about something and not have to think that that's not part of you as well... it all is, the good and the 'bad'.... (((((Kay)))))))