These mixed episodes are starting to cause problems. I rapid cycle, and the last couple days have been a roller coaster ride from h**l. I'd be in my car driving and making sound effects (like the commercial where the little pig is "whheee"ing out the back window of an suv) when turning a corner or slowing down quickly. Then by the time I got home a few hours later I was feeling both depressed and hyper at the same time. Several things I kept thinking about that needed to be done, but never took the initiative to even start.

I don't see my new T for another week. But it's starting to feel like everything I've bottled up for the last 15yrs is starting to surface. It's getting rather scary. Not knowing how I'm going to react to things. And the isolation this week probably isn't helping.