Hello Neri.

It does help me to think things through. What will happen next if I <drink> <take a pill> ? I try to use imagery, to see myself bumping up the stairs, or being sick in the toilet, or lying with my cheek pressed to the bathroom tile. I don't want to do that again, I don't want to be there again. Whatever release I imagine I'll get from using, I look forward through that imagining and see what I'll be on the other side. Full of regret, maybe shame, maybe not able to feel at all.

Hope this helps.
spc