It is winning, the past, flooding me with thoughts, feelings, flashbacks, nightmares...

I am feeling so desperate and vulnerable. I need to keep it together for my family. I have no strength left.

Everything they ever told me - you will fail, you will never amount to anything, you are worthless. It is all becoming true. I wanted to prove them wrong. I wanted to be strong.

Everything I've tried has failed, I don't want to try anymore.

How do I reclaim myself from the ghosts that always haunt me?