Thanks, PTSD.....

It feels so surreal that today is the day. UGH....

Last night, the one group member that I had so much trouble with (called me a drama queen, etc.) and we worked so hard to mend and build a relationship actually CALLED me for the first time ever to wish me luck in court today, etc. I could tell that he genuinely cared.

With as difficult as a gestalt based group T is, it's amazing how much good work comes from working through difficult situations.

I am doing so-so at the moment. My stomach is in knots and I am incredibly nauseous. I typically have nausea issues due to the migraines and pan....but just ran out of my nausea meds a couple days ago and am waiting for my refill to arrive in the mail. BAD timing. So, I'm taking over-the-counter nausea meds....not helping.

I know that as the day goes on, I will become more and more anxious...and I typically take klonopin for the panic....but I'm concerned that I won't be on my game at court if I'm on klonopin....but also concerned that I will be consumed with panic if I'm not on klonopin....UGH.

Decisions, decisions.....

I see T at 11:15...then have to be at court at 1:15...then group T at 5:30, IF I can get there in time after court.

Long day ahead....