*Hugs* Of course you're not a loser, would you say that to anyone else? Of course not, you shouldn't stand and accept low opinions of yourself from anyone, even yourself. Maybe your T had a bad day. Maybe there was a reason he didn't want to talk about what happened to the rug, it could have been something you wouldn't want to know about. Can you bring a matt or small piece of fabric that you can put where the spot used to be? Kind of a woobie to carry with you?